You know I love you, and I can't stand it.....

je_suis_desole @ 2005-05-27T09:11:00

2005-05-27T14:02:53Z

So here I am...8 months later updating this thing.It seems this website lost its appeal once myspace came into the picture. That website is addicting. You can easily spend hours on it with out noticing. The computer...is well my overall addiction. I guess thats a bad addiction to have..but better than a drug lol. Anyways. Prom is next weekend and that has been an ordeal in itself. Why can't we all agree on one thing? Ya know...we're all young adults we should all be able to talk and compromise and figure something out...but no. We are all forced to follow one leader who then makes all the descions and acts like an asshole. I'm not taking a limo to prom...my only prom. Why? Because people can't save up their money...or some of them won't even get a job. So I am forced to take Henry aka my red Kia to prom. My dress doesn't even fit in it! But I am happy about my date. In fact that and my dress are the only things I am looking foward to at prom. What are we doing after prom? Who freakin knows. Can we make up our minds? No. Hey lets all sleep at someones house...good idea...well we can't have more than 6 people there...and its not fair to leave 4 people out so that idea is scratched. Lets get two hotel rooms....too much money for some people to pay so that will prolly go out the window too. I don't wanna sit in my house on the night of prom. I refuse to. My last two months have been hell while I've been grounded...I want to have fun. But some people are making this quite impossible. I want to go to WildWood. Its nice down there. Not that I want to get wasted...but whatever my friends def won't go there and not like there's any rooms. Then a month ago I was told I had mono. Cool. Now I'm just sleepy all the time and my liver and spleen hurt. No gym for a month. Thats amazing. Alright I gotta go...See you in 8 months.

je_suis_desole @ 2004-09-05T13:11:00

2004-09-05T17:12:00Z

Let's go over some of the highlights from the last few days...

School started, it was ok, i enjoy my 3rd period teacher, i have 50404 popular kids in my 2nd period class and i want to punch them all personally with my right fist.

I went to the circus with becky, that was so much fun! I loved it. I know, I'm 17, and I had VIP tickets for the front row for the circus...gotta love it!

hmmm

Oh yes, here is lovely news...not really i was being sarcastic. My nose was pretty infected so I went to the piercing parlor to talk to the guy, and he told me i had to put a hoop in it because the stud was going to get pushed out because of the infection, and then the hole would close. So my only option was to put a hoop in. i feel funny. Please no one laugh at me. Well you can, just not to my face. Ok? Ok!

Um..I went shopping again and bought a lot more clothes. Oh how i do love the art of shopping on daddy's credit card. I am good at it.

Me and Gonzo were talking the other day in band and something came up about college and what we were majoring in...and this was my response...what do i want to major in? Marrying into money! Gonzo found it to be a very funny answer and felt the need to write it down. I think i make him laugh a lot. I am a dork! hahahaha

Still going on

Rob, I wish I could say goodbye to him, but i can't find enough courage to say it. I wish things would have worked out, because he truly made me feel good about myself. I do feel good about myself, but his words made it oh so much easier. I wish I knew what he was thinking. Maybe i was a bad kisser? I don't think thats the reason. I am too cute, thats it!

I am not going on anymore, I am going to leave. Comment, I like to see what people have to say to me!!!!!!!!

See ya later!

je_suis_desole @ 2004-08-24T21:12:00

2004-08-25T01:12:19Z

The only thing good about basketball camp this year is lunch. I have never laughed so much lol. Ryan, Jess C, Little One, Gf, Kel Bel, Jimmy, My freak, Blair, and Jess B, make me laugh, or quite possibly I make them laugh. I always seeem to say the most random stupid things. I have a disease, retartedness! Haha...Anyways. 1 1/2 days of basketball camp left! YESSSSSSS! Then I'll never ever have to come back for it!!! How excited am I? Verrrry Excited. Altho, I will miss lunch and my friends. This year has been the best so far. I'll admit summer will be different next year since I won't have to spend 2 weeks of my life in the hott sticky air. Not that I am complaining...I'm rejoicing! Basketball hasn't been as bad as I thought. I thought that all of my friends were leaving and that I wouldnt have any friends. I was wrong, I'm finally becoming friends again with the people who mean the most to me. For awhile we all went our seperate ways, but I think that will change...A much needed change I think. Ok I talked enough

I hate bad drivers, thats my pet peeve. I hate the jews who think they own the road, the elderly who drive too damn slow, the teenagers ( except me and a dew others) who think its their duty in life to race you at a light, the rich peoplewho drive nice cars but don't drive them fast enough, and lastly the middle aged people who drive while talking on cell phones and neglect to look at the road and suddenly slam om their brakes, causing me to slam on mine. The people listed above make me want to pull out my hair!!!

Goooodnight

je_suis_desole @ 2004-08-19T16:01:00

2004-08-19T20:01:06Z

I don't know why I have friends sometimes...I wish people knew the real me. I don't even know the real me, I'm afriad of what I'll see....For what I know now, I hate. I wish I was half the person of my 2 best friends. I am heading down a road not knowing what I want in life. I love to write, but is my writing actually good enough to get me somehwere. I always wanted to be that girl everyone likes, the girl that everyone wants to be friends with, the girl who never speaks a mean word about anyone. I have spoken words that I am ashamed of. I am ashamed of myself at times. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing the reflection I see. All I see is the mistakes I've made, the friends I've lost because of them, and the overwhelming feeling of guilt. I do smile still at some of the things I have. I have been give amazing friends who always seem to point out the good in me. I have a best friend who never fails to make me laugh and I have another best friend who means the world and a half to me. But still the sharp insistent feeling of loss fills me. I wish I didn't hang on too tightly to the one thing that makes me smile...Because now that one thing makes me cry...A constant battle I fight within myself

je_suis_desole @ 2004-08-17T23:36:00

2004-08-18T03:36:42Z

An Ode to a Sexy Ass Cuban

Oh how I love the way you shake your butt around my house
The way you wiggle your thang turns me upside
You make my side hurt from laughing
And you make me smile when i am so very sad
I wish I were a cuban like you for that would be wicked cool
FREAK FREAK FREAK FREAK FREAK FREAK FREAK!!
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This hair is WICKED bad!

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je_suis_desole @ 2004-08-14T01:44:00

2004-08-14T05:44:40Z

Today was colleen's after after party at my house, mike sean craig colleen cathy olivia and I celebrated it. It was rather fun I will admit. They were over until like 1:30, and it was the last time i would see mike and craig...It was upsetting and I am sad to see them leave...Tomorrow I might hangout with Rob. I hope I do...Later Gater

je_suis_desole @ 2004-08-12T23:32:00

2004-08-13T03:32:54Z

Everyone is leaving soon....I am upset about that. I have no one to sit with on the bus, besides my freak..depressing. Me and rosie are making a list of the perfect guy, look for an update with the list! LOVE YOU! comments welcomes

je_suis_desole @ 2004-08-05T23:47:00

2004-08-06T03:47:08Z

I hung out with Craig tonight, it was a lot of fun. I'm going to miss him when he leaves...

je_suis_desole @ 2004-08-04T01:31:00

2004-08-04T05:31:34Z

I walked into three spiderwebs today while I was walking in the dark...Great feeling.

Hey Blondie...Thanks for being a jerk today to a supposedly good friend....You get an A+ today for being an assbag!! SUCKA! Have fun screwing up life! Muhaha I'll be laughing then...and so will OC. Hey here's a joke, whats better than a blonde chic making fun of a blonde guy? A blonde chic beating the shit out of the blonde guy...I'm totally amazing at this joke game...

Rob is on vacation until next week. I miss him, yet I don't. I wish...I wish I knew what he was thinking...
xoOMGimblonde (12:25:17 AM): i am a loser
GuNiT Soldier459 (12:27:00 AM): well if its like that then hey im tryin to date a loser

With those words I leave you

je_suis_desole @ 2004-07-30T17:29:00

2004-07-30T21:29:40Z

I think I am going on a date tonight w/ Roberto. I am nervous. I always am though...I asked Meg what I should wear, she said nothing, wouldn't that be a sight. WHOA! I have butterflies right now! AH!

je_suis_desole @ 2004-07-26T12:16:00

2004-07-26T16:16:38Z

I am sucha jerk and I don't know why people bother with me. I think I potentially screwed everything up with Rob. I said something and he got mad and I am mad because I really care about him. It seems he doesn't even care at all anymore. Ug! I pissed him off, and I am a jerk...

je_suis_desole @ 2004-07-25T00:08:00

2004-07-25T04:08:03Z

My cruise was about as much fun as a bad out break of herpes....It rained the whole time and I had to deal with 50 thousand wiggers and hollister girls. Can we say BORING? yeah yeah...

I did hang out with Rob the night before I left which made up for the lack of fun I didn't have on the cruise. It was amazing and I had a lot of fun. I admit I missed him quite a bit. I bought him a stuffed animal from Universal Studios. Its the pug from the movie Men In Black. I want to keep it, forget about Rob lol. We're gunna go to the movies on July 30th to see The Village. It will oficially be our first date. How cute! He's cute. Alright no more mushy gushy stuff Emily!!

Bed time! Peace out Cub Scout!

je_suis_desole @ 2004-07-17T09:32:00

2004-07-17T13:32:13Z

I like him so much :0)

je_suis_desole @ 2004-07-16T05:19:00

2004-07-16T09:19:12Z

He has totally swept me off my feet and I cannot stop smiling...

je_suis_desole @ 2004-07-08T11:11:00

2004-07-08T15:11:49Z

Adopt Your Own Emo Kid!

je_suis_desole @ 2004-07-07T13:51:00

2004-07-07T17:52:09Z

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Name
Favorite color
Your Stripper Name Is	Juwanna
You started when you were	13
and ended at the age of	24
Your stripper theme was	Closer by nine inch nails
you averaged this much money a night	$3,149
you were known for	being high/drunk on the job

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je_suis_desole @ 2004-07-06T16:06:00

2004-07-06T20:06:16Z

How sweet is this, I was selected to be in the Internationl Who's Who in Poetry I get 2 pages dedicated to me. I was one of the 200 people selected in the entire world. I am REALY happy. Maybe this will help me get my writing known in the poetry world lol. I could win $5000 too, amazing! Ok enough rambling

My nose still hurts today, and I am rather grumpy because every time i move my face my nose throbs....Its cute tho, Kevin said i was punk rawk because of it, ya know what EFF YOU KEVIN! jk i love kev! :)

later

je_suis_desole @ 2004-07-05T15:15:00

2004-07-05T19:15:16Z

My right Nostril is officially pierced.

je_suis_desole @ 2004-06-27T23:14:00

2004-06-28T03:14:58Z

I can't wait to have our party with hunter, jenn, and becky....the liquor! It makes me enthused lol.

Becky is gone, and i am lost, goodbye :(

je_suis_desole @ 2004-06-18T21:41:00

2004-06-19T01:41:42Z

I am WAY too lazy for my own good. I love it! Ya know what was totally freaky yesterday. I went to the doctor's for my eyes, and he has to put these drops in . It turned my eyes balls yellow! And it numbed my eyes, so I was poking it and I couldn't feel it, then when i would move my eyes and it felt even more weird, but I enjoyed it...NOT! I got new glasses that are the color of purple, can we say yummy? Tres belle! oui oui oui!

I love French and I wish I could speak it better, or at least write it. I am so special ed when it comes to learning Francaise.

Je vais maintenant ( I am going now)

je_suis_desole @ 2004-06-17T22:16:00

2004-06-18T02:16:13Z

I was alllll ready to write this cute entry on all the events today in my life, then I remembered, you stupid idiot, you have a shit load of laundry to do and a ton of packet work for Cuff...i better go get to it...don't worry though I'll be back to write that amazing entry...

Ps. I love how i wasted time on writing this

je_suis_desole @ 2004-06-16T20:47:00

2004-06-17T00:47:01Z

So yeah I was informed that if a girl has 1. money 2. expenisve clothes 3. hair appointments 4. pretty nails 5. a nice car, then they will be noticed by guys and it makes her that much more cute....dumb boys, american society is messed up.

Yo today, it was funny. I went to go get ice from the fridge, ya know its the kind where you put your cup up to it and it dispenses it without doing any physical excertion. So I put the cup up....and I press the button....and you know what comes out,,,,,an ice pop, a cherry ice pop. It was funny, I can't wait to see what comes out next time, maybe a boy?

I have so many graduation parties...Whose do I choose?

Cuff's final is in 1 day, wtf? How will I pass? CRAZY! " I'm not making this up folks!"

I did something dumb, I'm sorry to the person I acted stupid to, but I still believe some of the things I siad. But according to you, I talk about him all the time, reality check, I don't...

So glad the summer is here, I can't put up with this bullshit anymore, I am waiting for that day when you see i was right, aNd I hope you apologize for ever accusing me of the things you did.

later

je_suis_desole @ 2004-06-15T22:42:00

2004-06-16T02:42:58Z

So it wasn't just me after all...this is my new found fun...muhahahahahaha...i can't wait to see what this while turn out to be! Summer seems to be getting better every day, and i thought this one would suck. Who would of known? Laaaaater!

je_suis_desole @ 2004-06-14T19:06:00

2004-06-14T23:06:20Z

Do you know, that at this very moment, stephanie hunter aka my god, is putting up my new icon, I believe it is a very nice icon and we look hott. HAHAHA, So anyways, 6 more days and i will be done with school. Can we say party? I can. I think it should involve tons of illegal activity.

Liv has a lucky finger, therefore i call her lucky finger liv. I think it is cute.

I am getting my right nostril pierced very soon. It will look cute and not trashy, like kevin says. Thanks kevin, kick me some more!

Ok i am bored and my new icon is up and it looks hott, thanks stephanie!

Who has the longest?

2004-06-13T01:32:03Z

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